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occams_earlobe @ 2008-01-18T12:55:00

2008-01-18T01:56:40Z

photos of anglesea on myspace.com/adabisi

occams_earlobe @ 2007-10-29T13:24:00

2007-10-29T03:36:58Z

I usually have pretty good self esteem, but sometimes I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just spent the last week not doing anything at all and feeling bad about it because I've got hard exams and I need to learn a lot of stuff. And I can't sleep, so I lie in bed thinking about the world until 2,3,4,5 and then have stupid dreams about stressful things and then can't get up in the morning. So I sleep until I'm dehydrated and feel shit and then get up, "too tired" to study, then I can't get to sleep that night because I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING! and the north wind doesn't help.
Yesterday I went for a ride to try and use up some energy, but it didn't work, and instead of getting up early this morning to go to uni, I slept till 1. But now I'm here and I'm going to do some of these questions and no amount of daytime TV can stop me! Although, there are a lot of fuckwit engineering students here so maybe I'll just get everything I need and go home. But I will study, I promise!

I got hit by a CAR last night!!! (but don't worry, I'm okay)

2007-10-11T00:26:36Z

I was turning right from warrigal rd onto the new south rd extension and some guy was turning left from the slip lane and I thought he saw me but he didn't and I tried to turn more but I couldn't and he ran into the side of me and hit my hip/shoulder and I went up the bonnet and then skidded along the road on my arse. But he got out and offered to take me to l'hôpital and pay for my bike (I didn't go to the hospital, and I'm not sure about my bike). Anyway, I've got a few grazes on my arm, and my coccyx is hurting like buggery, but my hand is O.K. which is most important right now, re: music and exams. I'm hoping my arse is better for exams though, cos at the moment I definately could not sit down for three hours concentrating.

In other, more uplifting, news. My RC20-XL looping pedal arrived a couple of days ago, it will be awesome (when I get an amp to plug it in to). It's much smaller than I expected...which is nice!

!!!ATTENTION!!!

2007-09-20T00:39:39Z

I (and hopefully you too) will be celebrating my 21st at the espy on the 21st of october.
If all goes to plan it will be a night filled with jazz, funk, metal and punk (and some experimental/noise to cap off the evening.
I'm playing some stuff with Chris, Matt and Fab (bass) and hopefully an amazing guitarist.
And unbeknownst to Carey and Kyle, the three of us will be doing some wierd and wonderful musical things.
And I'm not too sure about Vampora or the Bitter Sweet Kicks yet, but we'll see.
Oh, and it's in the public bar.

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occams_earlobe @ 2007-04-12T13:40:00

2007-04-12T03:46:57Z

I don't know why I had six pints last night. Four would have been enough.
I had a rather interesting ride home, it took quite a lot of concentration to go in a straight line, but I managed not to swerve into any cars, and I got home alright. It was wierd though, because I smelt like guiness and cigarette smoke and Kyle and Styf, which is a strange combination.
Aren't religious people funny?

Worst Week EVER!!!

2007-04-05T06:38:03Z

I haven't posted since october 29, 2006. I knew it had been a while, but that's quite a while. I guess I just haven't really been arsed. But my life has recently turned to shit, so I thought I'd have ~~a bit~~ a lot of a whinge.

Type your cut contents here.

Sunday night, everything was dandy. I wasn't looking forward to the upcoming week of tests and assignments, but life was good and I was happy. I serendipitously stumbled upon a modern dance thing on abc which is pretty much the best piece of art I've seen this year. It was filmed in a really interesting room with floorboards on the walls which curved down to become the floor and it created some really nice optical illusions. The music was amazing (too hard to describe - strings/world/modern/jazz) and it was filmed and lit beautifully, the bodies castings shadows on the walls, or silhouettes against the bright timber. The film was also sped up slightly so the dancers were moving just quickly enough so that you wondered whether they could actually move with such agility or not. The actual choreography was also amazing and not boring or wanky like a lot of that sort of thing. It really showed the beauty of the human body and the way it moves. It was graceful and fluid and organic, but at the same time very formed and mechanical.
Anyway, from monday morning onwards, life steadily got worse. Mostly because of ...stuff, which I don't care to mention. But on top of that I had masses of work to do for uni, a test on fluid dynamics at 9:00 this morning which was worth %12.5 and a big hairy programming assignment for aerospace computational mechanics which I've worked on all week (especially the last six hours) and I'm still not even close to finishing! It's due in half an hour, but the lecturer suggested I hand it in next wednesday cos I'll only lose %10. But now that means I'll have to keep working on it until then, as well as my other three assignments due the week after that.
Even though I've been going to bed early I haven't been getting any sleep, and I feel like I'm dying. All week I've felt like I'm writhing on the ground in agonising pain, being speared in the chest and the stomach with a javelin and bleeding to death. And I don't feel like it's going to get better any time soon.
Thanks for reading my self-pitying shite. Have a look at my myspace. There're photos of stuff at anglesea when I was happy. www.myspace.com/adabisi

occams_earlobe @ 2006-10-29T05:43:00

2006-10-29T05:46:34Z

I'm dying.
I hate exams.
I hate studying.
I just want to go and live at anglesea
and play music
and be art.

Monday

2006-10-16T06:09:07Z

That was one of the better mondays I've had in a long time. Mostly because I didn't have to get up until 11:00!! and I didn't have to do any assignments or anything like that. AND... when I got off the bus thismorning, the first person I saw was a beautiful girl that looked at me and she looked like Amander Palmer and Steph (styf), but she was blonde and tall.
Today was also quite good in contrast to my SHIT weekend. I was in a bad mood from friday afternoon until the moment I woke up thismorning and I was perpetually frustrated and felt like punching the faces of almost everyone whom I encountered.
But I had a crazy dream which was entertaining and all day I have felt great.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-10-02T10:14:00

2006-10-02T00:23:31Z

I think that may have been the least birthdayish birthday I've ever had. I worked from 10-6 (and it was mindnumbingly busy) then I had a lovely meal with my family at a Japanese restauraunt, then I got back home and worked on a lab report for a long time... six hours of trying to sleep and not really succeeding... and then up at 6AM! to finish the report. Finally a very hurried ride to uni to hand in my report before 9. But actually, I feel a little bit fantastic now.
The report was for a guy called Yogen Padayachi. Isn't that a good name? I'm pretty sure you say it with a long o and a hard g.
Speaking of good names, I was recently reminded that Thelonious Monk's middle name is Sphere. Now that is the best name in the entire world!
Thelonious Sphere Monk.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-09-18T10:08:00

2006-09-18T00:46:12Z

Well! That was a fantastic weekend, but probably not the best time for it.
On satdy I went to see When Darkness Falls (i think that was the title), which was a sort of lesbian film noir type thing and it was very good and a little bit hilarious. Then we made our way to the Espy with a bunch of crazy lesbians (who also saw the film) and the Espy was surprisingly unshit. Although, looks like pints and shcooners are not coming back for a long time! Then stayed at Chris's's's and then got up at 9 to ride home and go to work, which was long and tiring. Then home for a little bit and off to the Corner for DRESDON DOLLS!!! who were fantastic as expected. They were a little dissappointed because there was lots of stuff going wrong and they thought it was a shit gig, but it wasn't it was awsome. I just love that woman's voice sooo much, it's unbelievably good. Also, there was lots of other good stuff happening earlier: shadow puppets, american accordian folk/russian/gypsy/??? guy, and australian strange kabuki faced band with people painting a canvas and a boy.
The gig fininshed at exacly twelve which was lovely because it was just in time to catch the last train home. But I ran into some unnerving violence on the way (not directed at me). I was sitting on the platform at Richmond and there were people behind me yelling across the tracks behind me at there friend. They looked like sort of punk biker types and they spoke like utter bogans, but I was quite surprised because the other guy was saying a lot of ridiculus racist things about muslims and this guy and girl on my side were telling him what an idiot he was, and they were making all of these intelligent well educated arguments. I guess it was just funny hearing it in boganese. Anyway, this went on for some time and then some young guy (lets call him #) started talking to the guy on my side and saying that he should go over and bash that guy up and then for some reason all of a sudden the two guys on my side were arguing even though they agreed about the whole racism thing. So they tackled eachother onto the tracks, which was obviously a bit of a fall, and after a bit of punching, # stood up and started thowing rocks at the other guys head. This was quite scary because this guy lying on the tracks was bleeding from the head and looking a bit sus. Luckily #'s friend stopped him, and the bleeding guy got back up onto the platform and walked away. But wait, there's more! # then got up onto the platform on the other side to start yelling at the racist guy - who, by the way, was a huge scary skinhead biker sort of a man - and after a while he punched the racist guy a couple of times (even though his friend was still trying to stop him) and then he just king hit the biker and knocked him out. Then everything quitened down, and just as I was wondering if I should do something about the unconcious biker, he woke up and stood up and he appeared to be okay.
The end.
It's funny that I wrote more about that five minutes than I did about the rest of my weekend, I get rather freaked out by violent situations like that.
I hope everyone had oodles of fun at Carey's.

wOll

2006-09-11T03:37:46Z

I was dying this morning. Stuff was bad and things were even worse, and then I realised that I was supposed to turn up to a lab last thursday and I just didn't! I even read the manual the day before and then I just forgot about it. Anyway, it's okay now because I turned up to the thing today to ask the guy if I could do it today and he said it was fine. (Although I had to wait around first as he was being late.)
And the lab ended up being an utter joy! All we had to do was look at beautiful flow patterns and then sketch them. Which was nice.
Now I'm going to learn katakana and then more on Fourier series (which, by the way, I am beginning to fall in love with!).},;_[\>.)]]])

occams_earlobe @ 2006-09-05T18:00:00

2006-09-05T08:11:24Z

Well, I'm approaching the autumnal hours of another tuesday.
Tuesdays have been pretty crazy this semester; they're fun, boring, stressful, relaxing, inspiring, depressing, educational, confusing, frustrating and just plain exhausting.
Today was alright, but tricky. And I just found out that if I want to study maths in Japan for a semester, I'll have to do it with the local students... in Japanese! I was planning on learning Japanese anyway, but apparently I'll have to get to Level 2 Japanese which means:
"The examinee has mastered grammar to a relatively high level, knows around 1000 Kanji and 6000 words, and has the ability to converse, read and write about matters of a general nature. This level is normally reached after studying Japanese for around 600 hours and after completion of an intermediate course."
The woman I was talking to said she got her level 2 certificate after FIVE YEARS! so I guess I better get started.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-08-01T17:57:00

2006-08-01T08:02:50Z

Damien Beresford is in TWO of my classes and it's becoming increasingly difficult to avoid him. He's in the same Lab sessions as me and the other day in a lecture we nearly ran into eachother (literally). And in my maths lecture yesterday I saw that he was sitting next to Craig (? I think that's his name) who lives just up the road from me (quite a way up. Not just next door).

And then just five minutes ago I saw damien in the union building and he looked at me, so I think he's onto me! Maybe I should just drop out of maths and physics for this semester>

occams_earlobe @ 2006-07-20T10:16:00

2006-07-20T00:21:28Z

I've never had problems with spam in the past, but in the last couple of weeks I've had masses of email with porn, viagra, watches (mostly rolex/folex), and today - mortgage refinancing and something to do with Tiger Woods. Has the world gone mad?!

Maybe it's just the internet making up for all my spam free email usage.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-07-17T10:10:00

2006-07-17T00:24:47Z

Well, here I am back at uni. It's wierd how everything just starts again and it's like the holidays didn't even happen.
Just had my first maths lecture and the lecturer seems pretty good and we're doing differential equations which are RIGHT up my alley.
My timetable is a bit shit: 25.5 contact hours, and I'll end up being at uni for 40 hours a week. But at least I passed my subjects for last semester.

Actually, I feel pretty good because I had a sort of epiphany last night and all of a sudden the whole world is fantastic. But even though I'm happy, I'm tired because my epiphany meant that I couldn't stop thinking about stuff and I only got a few hours sleep.

Jesus Fingerlickin' Christ!

2006-06-09T05:20:52Z

Everything is so ridiculus at the moment and my mood has been swinging like it's 1943.
The last couple of weeks of uni were horrible because me and this other guy spent hours and HOURS working on a stupid assignment that we'll probably get a bad mark for anyway. And I also had a quantum assignment due on friday. But then by Saturday night I felt FANTASTIC. I had a surge of creativity and it seemed like everything for the rest of my life, everything would pan out perfectly and I would always be happy. Then I couldn't get to sleep until 4-5, so things didn't seem that good anymore.

Sunday night I had a long crazy dream which made no sense, and Chris was in it and he was depressed and we were talking about stuff. Then I woke up and Sarah called two minutes later to tell me that his Grandma had died.

All week that good version of somewhere over the rainbow (with the uke) has been going in and out of my head, and when I read the end of Chris's post I nearly almost cried. I couldn't go to the funeral on thursday because I had a stupid physics exam. But again, somewhere over the rainbow was in my head the whole day and then Scrubs went CRAZY! did anyone watch it?
They very cleverly put in little subplots so I didn't even notice for a long time, but then all of a sudden the whole episode was the wizard of oz, and in the closing scenes the lawyer guy and his barbershop quartet did a uke version of somewhere over the rainbow. I think that's the most amazing set of coinkidinks I've ever witnessed!

So anyway, now I've got the whole problem of study procrastination, and it's even more tempting because I've got a bunch of muscial and other creative endeavors that I want to jump into. Actually, I think I should be able to get through the next couple of exams with just an hour or two study, that should leave enough time for goodness.

(PS - At the Espy on monday nights it's $10 Beer and Burger night!)

Stressed, tired, happy, excited.

2006-05-25T07:25:04Z

MoJO is playing with Monash Big Band on wed 31 (next wednesday) at the campus centre dining hall. Tickets are $10, starting at 7.30 and playing for a few hours. (I'm playing at the start.)

...It might be good.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-05-16T11:33:00

2006-05-16T01:37:06Z

I don't know why, but I feel good today. Even though I've got too much to do and I don't want to do it, I feel like everything's going to be nice.

Has anyone been watching Six Feet Under lately? They've all gone crazy! Again!

occams_earlobe @ 2006-05-11T11:21:00

2006-05-11T01:30:07Z

I'm feeling a bit shit. Not just because I feel shit, but because I've got an arseload of assignments to do over the next few weeks and then EXAMS, and the engineering design subject that was just drifting along nicely just got fifty-eight times harder, and I happen to be in the minority (about 15 people in a few hundred) that is at a complete disadvantage because we're the only ones that haven't learnt the stuff we need to know.

I think I'm going to have to work pretty hard even to just pass my subjects, when last week everything was looking doable.

The only thing I'm glad of is that I'm not doing chemistry.

last week

2006-05-02T01:56:04Z

Last week was the best, worst, and hardest (almost) week of my life. Went to the espy on monday night even though I shouldn't have because I'M SICK. I'm not supposed to drink so I didn't, but it was a fantastic night. There were many very talented bands on and Ash Grunwald who was just what I needed and then Chris jumped on a TV which was the funniest thing in the world (and a little worrying).
ANZAC day involved staying at Sarah's too late and then rushing everywhere in order to work on my robot with a bunch of nerds. The rest of the week was pretty much more of the same, a lot of work, very stressful, many assignments, then it was over and I had a wonderful friday night. I saw a collection of short films with Sarah for the German film festival and then ran into her German teacher and some students from Mentone (and emma) and we went to the Hofbrauhaus (can't remember how to spell it) where we ate german food, drank german beer (just a little), listened so german musik, and watched a thirteen-year-old in leiderhausen doing some slapdancing.
On saturday and sunday the glandular fever pounded me into submission and I still feel shit. Fevers, a bad cough, my skin hurts all over my body, my muscles and joints ache, and my eyeballs feel like they're being squished.
Anyway, this week shouldn't be too intense.

BAND CAMP

2006-04-23T06:48:32Z

Just got back this very minute and I'm still standing (just).

Classical musicians are strange creatures. they come across as good, intelligent people with good taste, but then their music nerd humour comes out (sort of like hardcore christians)and you just want them to SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I also played a lot of good music....... which was nice.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-04-21T16:52:00

2006-04-21T06:55:32Z

In a few minutes I am going to embark on a journey through time and space to the alternate reality that is BAND CAMP. I'm really not looking forward to it, although the music should be fun. Anyway, I'll let you know how it went when I get back.

Deepest apologies to the wonderful Carey and Sam for not being there tonight. Have fun.

Life's shit, but I'm happy!

2006-04-18T04:28:51Z

Went to the Doctor's this morning and it turns out I do have glandular fever. But for some reason that seemed like good news, I guess it's just good to know what it is. Anyway, he said I shouldn't work too hard and try to get the amount of sleep I need (much more difficult than he realises) and I'm also supposed to abstain from al q'hol for 3-6 months, (MUCH MORE DIFFICULT THAN HE REALISES!). And even though I know this is gonna SUCK, I don't really feel too bad about it.

This week has already disappeared and I've got arseloads of stuff to do (maybe should stop thinking about it and DO IT), and at the end of the week I've got to go on band camp and I won't even be able to take the edge off my discomfort with a warm bottle of sake.

Over the last week and a bit I have consumed 1kg of nutella...mmmmmm. That's not related to any of this though..... or is it?

No I think my happiness is probably due to the getting drunkness with Chris and Sarahs. Although it seems strange that it should have lasted this long.

Thinks

2006-04-11T07:34:25Z

Today was a good day, and unfortunately I think the main reason was the unexpected warmth. The reason this is unfortunate is that it implies that I don't like the cold which is a bit depressing (the statement and therefore the cold).
The other reason that today was good is I understood all the maths from today and the last week, and I could do the questions and get the right answers! Previously, it has been a bit shit.

I watched a film the other day called Stratosphere Girl.
It.
Was.
Good.
And it made me think about traveling and STUFF. (stuff actually refers to something in this case, but I don't want to go into it)

I've been thinking more about joing the airforce even though at first glance it's not really my thing. But I think it could work out nicely depending on some things that I need to look into. As long as they don't want me to "put my life on the line" I think it should work.

I really don't want to go to Band camp, but I think I have to. I don't want to go because: fristly, it's always awkward hanging around music nerds; secondly, I'll have less time to work on my pressing requirements at university; and thirdly, and most importantly, I'll miss out on Carey and Sam's wonderful birthday party.

Here is something one of the music nerds wrote for our music festival:
Go Team Festival!!!

Festival
Excitement
Surges
To
Incredible
Volumes
As
Love

Teaches
Everyone
About
Music

On another note, (that wasn't meant to be a witty segue), I don't usually get much spam or anything in my email, but today I got this one:

Dear Karl,
We'd like to wish you a very happy birthday.
Thanks for being part of the Getaway Travel Club and for your continued support.
We look forward to bringing you the best in holiday and travel information.

And it was signed by Catrina Roundtree with x's and o's (what an hilarious name!).
I don't know where they got my birthdate, through hotmail I guess, but they're off by almost exactly six months. I never signed up for any 'holiday and travel information' and they've never sent me any. And I don't see how I could've been showing my continual support when I didn't even know I was part of the Getaway Travel Club.

occams_earlobe @ 2006-04-07T14:17:00

2006-04-07T04:19:53Z

I peed in a cup this morning and then someone took some of my blood (from my arm), so I soon know what ails me.

And I just sat through my last solid state physics lecture. YESSSSSSSSSSS! (clenches fist with joy)